I love him but I can’t stand when he does this stupid shit.
I need to get my mind right and stop it from happening. I can’t let it happen again. I regret it every time. It goes against what I believe and what I want for myself. It tears apart relationship with God when I need to be closer to him. We need to stop this. Everything is better without it.
I have my life.
I don’t like when my boyfriend drinks a lot and gets drunk or almost drunk. A few beers is okay. But I don’t like if he drinks too much to get drunk. I don’t know why, it just bothers me and I don’t like it. I don’t know why. Maybe cuz I just don’t want him to get drunk. I like him when he’s sober.
Maybe I won’t hate it so much once I turn 21 and can drink too.
And then there’s work……..
So glad that I stay out of the drama from work and just mind my own business. That shit is for immature kids and they should just leave that shit at high school. All every one does is smoke, drink, and talk shit about people. I could care less who talks shit about me too. I won’t be there too much longer anyway.
So we’ve been doing this stuff a lot and it needs to stop. It’s not healthy for our relationship that it keeps happening. It goes against what I believe in and because of that I am very disappointed and just upset with myself for continuing to let it happen. We’ve tried to stop but it hasn’t worked & just keeps happening. We both have been getting carried away and when I actually think about it, I don’t like it. It has gone too far. Way too far. And I just think it would be so much better if we actually had the power to stop this and just wait. Like we have to stop and he has to understand that.
I hope we can do this. Foreal this time. For real.